This post is a difficult one to write because, if I’m being honest, I don’t know that I can pinpoint exactly when it all started. Looking back, I think it was sometime after my second son was born.
My mom and I have always loved talking about health. We were, and still are, constantly discussing new ideas. Looking back, she was the first person to talk to me about watching the sunrise. She was learning from a doctor friend whose own understanding of health and the human body was evolving, and naturally I wanted to know what had her so excited, and frankly, so convinced.
At the time, I didn’t even realize the sun rose at a different time every day. I loved being outside and I loved having a good tan. But I wasn’t connected to nature in the way I am today. I understood the idea of a circadian rhythm, but only at a surface level. To me, it meant not watching TV too late or staying off my phone before bed because the blue light would make it harder to sleep. But sunrise? Little did I know that was just the tip of the iceberg.
I’ve always been willing to try just about anything if I thought it might improve my health, so I didn’t dismiss what she was saying. If anything, it made me curious. Curious enough to start asking questions and doing my own digging. After years of battling chronic Lyme disease, I was still searching for answers. I had experienced healing in so many ways, but I couldn’t shake the feeling that there was still more to learn. Part of that is just how I’m wired. I’ve never been able to settle for “that’s just the way it is.” But if I’m being honest, it was more personal than that. I couldn’t shake the feeling that my body was capable of more.
I think it’s easy to convince ourselves that feeling tired, inflamed, anxious, or disconnected is simply part of life. We blame our age, stress, hormones, or any number of other things. At surface level, those explanations often seem true. But many times they simply become reasons to stop asking questions. And I’ve never been very good at settling. So instead, I dove in headfirst. At the time, I thought I was simply learning about health. I had no idea I was beginning to see the world through a completely different lens. The way we live. The way we eat. The way we interact with the world around us. The way we think about the human body. The way we define “health.” The assumptions we’ve accepted without ever questioning them.
I slowly realized that all of this wasn’t just changing what I knew, it was changing how I lived. It changed the questions I asked and it changed the choices I made. And once I started seeing the world through that lens, I couldn’t unsee it.
Psalm 119:130 “The unfolding of your words gives light; it gives understanding to the simple.”
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